stupid mistake of mine!

cried the whole night.. haiz. now eyes a litle swollen.. cried for a stupid reason... but i think i was even stupid to let go of that once in a lifetime chance.. why didn't i think? why did i rely on my friends to make my decisions? 10 representatives from each school... 2 from each form.. highest scorer in english.. creative writing workshop in sm sains... that school is one of the best school in kk... but no, i was thinking abt my friends more than my studies... if they give a certificate, it'll so help me to get my future scholarship.. but i did a stupid mistake.. i told my techer before i consulted mom, yee and God... great~ but who can i blame but myself for being so foolish? haha... i guess it's already a past, no point blaming anyone but myself... next time i'll be more alert n remember the lesson i've learnt this time... the good thing is i get to go 1B la. haha... oh btw, if u ask why i didn't say i wanna go is cause some ppl run away when i juz told them i got asked to go to a workshop and another one gave me a scary stare.. u want me to tell them i wanna go to the workshop? not likely to get killed am i? thanks God He doesn't run away from me when i have troubles..