hate myself... i hate it when i have to be the evil one... i always say i love it... but do i? is this the real choon ying? i'm telling the freaking whole world choon ying is missing! she's growing up to be someone else... i dono wat to do anymore... cry? laugh? hide? act? throw my temper? blame others? no.. i can't do anything.. why? cuz everyone wants me to be perfect... fine.. u want perfect i give u perfect... everyone expects the best out of me.. i don't do my homework means i'm bad.. i forget stuff, i became stupid. wow... want me to be perfect? ok. i will. juz u ppl wait n see... you ppl want me to be wat u want me to be right? even if i'm not a normal teenager anymore right?? ok. i'll be it then.